You know what messes me up more than almost anything else? Church and religion related ponderings. I start muddling them around in my head, trying to determine the absolute best way to go about doing whatever enterprise I'm embarking on at the moment, and I end up frustrated, irritated, restless, anxious, discontent and just plain out of sorts! That's where I've been for the past two or three days, pondering possible blog subjects and growing more and more frustrated with each one.
"I don't have anything to say on this that's not being said elsewhere!" I griped to God. "And even if I said something, most people are more interested in debate or feel-good agreement pat-me-on-the-back responding than in the truth and spirit of the matter."
God raised an eyebrow. For some reason He does this a lot when we talk. "Your point?" He asked.
"My point is that I don't want to write about religion, about the way the church ought to be, about all the gunk people do to each other in the name of Christianity!"
"Ah." He paused. "Who asked you to?"
I blinked. "But everyone else. . ."
". . .is doing it," He finished for me. Again with the eyebrow. "A hundred thousand lemmings. . ."
". . .can't be wrong," I finished for Him. "But they're not lemmings, Father. They're speaking truths that need to be said."
"Yes," He replied calmly. "But they're not your truths, Cindy. Not the ones I've given you to speak."
"Oh." :::feeling a bit foolish:::
He patted me on the head. "It's ok. You're a bright animal. You'll get the hang of it." I shot Him a look, and He grinned.
Am feeling better about the whole business this evening. Spent some time on a forum where I moderate, speaking truths there that He's given me to speak there. Apt words. Finding apt words for Quotidian Light is a little more difficult, but I'm beginning to find my way. At least I know which roads not to go down now. And to those of you like Feeble Knees (here and here) and Rick (thanks to Jadon for this link), who speak truths about issues that do desperately need to be addressed--Thank you. I appreciate you tremendously.